In just a few hours Alex and I will be on our way to Boulder to see Switchfoot in concert. I have felt mixed emotions about tonight. We planned this months ago. I know Alex is excited. Switchfoot is one of his favorite bands and he's been wanting some alone time with me. Sweet husband. :-)
I'm excited to go to the concert also. And I do miss having uninterrupted quality time with my husband...but I am so nervous to leave our baby! He will be in capable hands. Our friends, the Barleys, will be watching him. I have no doubt that he will be well cared for...but man, I'm going to miss him! And, of course, I worry. I worry that he'll miss me. I worry that something will happen and we'll be all the way in Boulder. I worry that he'll be fussy and sad. I worry that he won't have enough milk. It's silly but I guess that's what happens when you're a mom.
This won't be the first time we leave him. My parents watched him for a couple of hours last weekend when they were in town. Alex and I went to a party and I definitely cried in the car on the way there. Liam was fine, of course. When we got home he was cooing in his bassinet ready to go to sleep with a belly full of pumped breast milk and a fresh diaper on. But this is different! We'll be gone for six hours (at least!) and we'll be in another town! I'm going to miss my little booger and I just pray that he will be fine without me.
I think our next date night will be a little closer to home because I don't think I can stand being away from my handsome guy for so long. At least I'll be in the company of my other handsome guy. I love you, dear husband of mine! :-)
Parents, how was it for you the first time you left your baby with a sitter?
3 comments:
I can totally relate, I felt so guilty when I left Will for the first time, I remember cutting the night short just to get home to him. I am going to a concert at the end of the month and I am still nervous to leave Addy...and I am leaving her with Daddy!! Dare I say it is especially hard with BFing moms?? I mean, formula fed babies are use to taking bottles from anyone, but what if our babes decide not to eat?? Anyways, just my thoughts ;)
I think the hardest thing for me about leaving Lane for the first few times was knowing that the babysitter/grandparents/whoever wouldn't do things exactly the way I wanted them done. I mean, you do what you can to make a baby happy when you're babysitting, to heck with what the parent says! And that's just the way it is. So I think that was the hardest thing for me. I knew that she'd be fine, it's just hard when you're trying to establish routines to get out of the routine for a time or two!
You are a brave woman! I think the first time we left the girls for more than 6 hours was for a wedding we attended about a year ago. And then of course, I was away from them for 4 days right after I had Ellis. That has probably been the most painful time in my life.
Just wait till the day comes when you leave your children not for hours, but for days. :( I felt like I couldn't take a deep, complete, satisfying breath until they came back home to us.
welcome to motherhood :)
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